The Solo
He had never meant for anyone to hear him sing alone. Singing was different when there were twenty other children around you, all wearing white shirts that smelled faintly of starch and the wooden closet behind the sacristy. You could disappear inside the sound. But one Wednesday evening, after choir practice, Sister Margaret touched him lightly on the shoulder and said, “I think you should sing the solo on Sunday.” The boy looked behind him, certain she was speaking to someone else. She wasn't. The solo was only eight lines long, but by the time he walked home they had grown into something enormous. He imagined forgetting the words. Or his voice cracking. Worst of all, he imagined the whole church becoming terribly quiet while everyone waited for him to fail. He practiced everywhere. He sang softly in his bedroom with the door closed. He sang while brushing his teeth, while taking out the trash, and once beneath his breath in the grocery store until his mother smiled and pretend...